Thursday, March 13, 2008

I Still wonder!

“I wonder how?
I wonder why?
Yesterday you told me ‘bout a blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon tree
I’m turning my head up and down
I turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see
Is just another lemon tree”
-Fool’s garden-lemon tree

So I wonder how? I wonder still? How I wish things were just different? Or did I get it all wrong? Was it meant to be like this? That did I tend to be normally abnormal?

I tried to break free of my confines. I tried to fly free. I tried to look at the big black world. But alas did I still get it all wrong?

I soared high one time; I dropped deep low another time. Was it how it was all meant to be?

I feel so good, I feel so down, I feel so happy and still I feel sad. Is it how it should feel?

So I wonder how? I wonder still? How I wish things were just different? Or did I get it all wrong? Was it meant to be like this? That did I tend to be normally abnormal?

I get crazy, I shout at the top of my voice. I get mad, I sulk in a corner. Is it the normal way of life?

Ghosts of the past haunts me, ghosts of the future lingers in a corner. Is it the same for everyone?

I find it all exciting at one time, that I can take it no more. I find all to boring another time that I can’t vent up my frustration. So does it make me normal?

So I wonder how? I wonder still? How I wish things were just different? Or did I get it all wrong? Was it meant to be like this? That did I tend to be normally abnormal?
I laugh when I want to cry. I cry when I want to laugh. I see everyone through rose colored glasses. So I wonder if I am normal?

I see myself high in spirits. I see myself as a social outcast. I see myself heading high in people’s favorites list. Was it how life tends to be?

I bubble with confidence. I shrink away in fear. I search for the limelight, and I shrink away from embarrassment. Does it make any sense?

So I wonder how? I wonder still? How I wish things were just different? Or did I get it all wrong? Was it meant to be like this? That did I tend to be normally abnormal?

Driving people insane as always

Tuesday, March 11, 2008


‘Appa, I just can’t marry a complete stranger, this is ridiculous!!’ Adithi said with frustration to her father.
‘Adi…it isn’t as bad as you think it is, aren’t me and your mom happy? Aren’t your sisters happy?’ her father tried to persuade her, the youngest of his three daughters.
She just shook her head with exasperation and walked to her room.

Aravindh saw her in the little book shop she owned and decided she was the one. He walked to the counter.
‘May I help you sir?’ she asked smiling at him. ‘Oh yeah, you can definitely help me by marrying me!’ he said returning her one of his charming smiles.
‘Excuse me!!’ she glared back at him.
She wondered if he has cracked his head somewhere. He did not look like he had a loose nut. He was every inch of his 6 foot devastatingly attractive, that she could not take her eyes off him the minute he entered the shop. She was even more disgusted with herself for reacting in such a way. This was the last thing she needed in her life.
‘Oh sure, you are excused, so now will you marry me?’ he drawled.
‘Did you bang your head somewhere Mr..’
‘So silly of me, I did not introduce myself did I?’ He extended his hand and said ‘I’m Aravindh’
She stared at his long lean hand – Aravindh- he was Aravindh……recognition flooded her.
‘Ah…now you recognize me, great to meet you in person Adithi’ he gave her a lazy smile ‘Yet you haven’t replied to my question’ he smiled.
She stammered ‘Listen, you are mistaken…well….er….I have to work now…. I…’ He raised a hand to stop her. ‘Well you close the shop for Lunch, don’t you? We will meet in the coffee shop down the mall, and there you can give me your reply’
She simply stared back at him. ‘Meet you at 2 then, bye Adithi’
She tried to call him back and say no, but he was already walking out of the shop, out of her sight.

She glanced nervously around the coffee shop. ‘You don’t need to be nervous, I don’t bite young women, especially pretty ones like you!’ he chuckled.
Her face was turning pink, and she looked everywhere but at him. She did not know what she was doing down here, sitting before him in a coffee shop.
‘You are not much of a socializer, are you?’ He asked her.
‘Well…er…I..this is just so stupid!!’ she said with an exasperated sigh. ‘What is stupid?’ he gently questioned her.
‘Me…Here...You …sitting here, talking marriage…totally out of context!!’
‘Oh great, you are still considering my proposal!’ he smiled.
‘Listen, you completely don’t understand!!’
‘What part of the conversation don’t I understand?’
‘I am not the marrying type okay!!’
‘So who is the marrying type?’ he mocked her.
‘Well I want to expand my business, I want to be the largest book shop owner of the country, I have a lot to achieve’
‘So what has that got to do with marriage?’
‘Well with marriage comes family and responsibility, I want my book shop to be the first and last thing in my life’
‘Hmm….fair enough, but that doesn’t have to stop you from marrying me. I am not asking you to consider our marriage, the first and last thing in your life’
‘It has to be if I get married’
‘I would be happy if it is’
‘And, that is exactly what I don’t want to do’
At that time his phone buzzed. He answered it and returned back to her. ‘Listen Adithi, I understand your need to achieve and that is one thing which I liked about you. Your need to be independent and let me assure you that, there won’t be much change in it if we get married. I am simply asking you again to consider my proposal. I really have got to go now. I will keep in touch. Just promise me you will think about it.’
She was so mesmerized by his gaze looking at her intently and couldn’t say anything but murmur a ‘yes’

Read part 2 Here

To be continued blissfully…..

Driving people insane as always!

Monday, March 3, 2008

Tribute to Wriiter Sujatha

It has been a real long long time since I blogged....but this is one occasion which made me fight my laziness and write this blog.I was not keeping in touch with the news in tinsletown chennai, I had a seminar last Friday in my college where one of the speakers metioned about electronic voting machine which was introduced by LATE Sujatha......I was for a moment suprised! I did'nt react, that is when the news sunk in...that he passed away on wednesday in a private hospital.

I am a person who you will not catch reading anything that is written in tamil, mainly due to the fact my grasping power of tamil is very less as compared to english. but one exception to this is writer Sujatha's works. I usually read it from Ananda Vikatan, my favorites were usually 'Ganesh Vasanth', 'Srirangathu Devathaikal', and am a follower of 'Katrathum Petrathum'.Just the week before I was talking to my friend about calling speakers for our Youth Convention, that I spoke about him. It is such a sad news, which caught me unaware, and a great loss to the country.

About Writer Sujatha

He was born on May 3, 1935 and is the writer of over 100 novels, 200 short stories, essays stage plays, and popular articles and Q&A on science His real name is S. Rangarajan. As a well-known contemporary Tamil writer. Sujatha is considered among the foremost.

He is a well known columnist, most notably his "Kadaisi Pakkam" (last page) in Kanaiyazhi magazine, and "Katradhum... Petrathum..." (Learned and acquired...) In Anandha Vikatan magazine had a wide readership. He served for a short time as the editor of Kumudham magazine. He has also written stories, screenplays and dialogues for several Tamil movies. In addition, he has contributed to educational CD-ROMs.

He was the Chief of the team that designed the EVM or the Electronic Voting Machine during his tenure in Bharat Electronics as General Manager of R & D The machine is presently used in elections all over India.

Sujatha ( S.Rangarajan) was born in Triplicane, Chennai but spent his childhood in Srirangam near Tiruchirapalli under the care of his paternal grandmother owing to his father's frequent transfers in his government job. Rangarajan attended school in Srirangam Boys Highschool. He did his bachelors degree in physics in St.Joseph's College, Trichy where he was the classmate of President Abdul Kalam. Later on, he did his engineering in electronics at the Madras Institute of Technology. His writing interests were largely inspired by the short stories and serials published in popular Tamil magazines and literary magazines... "Sriranganthu Devathigal" (Angels of Srirangam) was a famous series based on life in that town the 50’s. His first short stories appeared in Kumudham. “Paalam" (bridge) published in Anandha Vikatan attracted reader’s attention.

After his Engineering degree he appeared in a competitive examination and joined the central government in Delhi.After 14 years in government service, he joined Bharat Electronics Bangalore.

In Bharat Electronics he rose to the post of general manager.After retirement he lives in Chennai ..

Sujatha received an award from the India's National Council for Science and Technology in 1993 for making science accessible to the public through popular media. He also received the VASWIK award for Electronic Voting Machine and Kalaimamani award from the Tamilnadu Government.

Sujatha is undoubtedly the most versatile Tamil writer – ranging from short stories, novels, plays, screenplays, movie dialogues, science essays and general non-fiction.. Sujatha has also pioneered science fiction stories in Tamil. He has the ability to explain science in very simple terms to the lay reader.

Sujatha brought freshness to Tamil writing on diverse topics. His interests include archeology, astrophysics, biotechnology, neuro sciences, ic music, ancient Tamil literature, sociology and many others.

He is an avid reader and uses his columns as a forum to point out good writers, and poets . He is also actively involved in several projects developing software for Tamil

His wife is a postgaduate in sociology Both his sons are in software .

The prolific writer suffered form renal disorder and died on Wednesday night at a private hospital. He is survived by his wife and two sons.

These are some other blogs which have paid their tribute to this prolific writer

He also had close association with the film world. Ninaithale Inikkum (Balachander), Roja(Mani Ratnam), Indian (Shankar) and Nadodi Thendral (Bharathi Raja) were some of the movies in which he collaborated with great directors spanning several decades.
Later Sujatha became as a permanent script writer for Mani Rathnam and Shankar. Most of their films including Iruvar, Kannathil Muthamittal, Ayutha Azhuthu, Guru, Jeans, Muthalvan, Boys, Anniyan and the latest Blockbuster Shivaji were written by Sujatha only.

His latest ground works for Mani Rathnam's yet to be titled film, an Aishwarya-Abhishek starrer almost completed..He had mentioned that when he handed over the completed script for Robot (based on En Iniya Iyanthra and Meendum Jeano), he told Shankar that he had completed his work satisfactorily and that it will be his last film.

Sujatha's demise is an irreparable loss to the Tamil literary world. A prolific writer who covered everything under the sun ranging from social character to metaphysics, Sujatha was aware of all what transpired in the society, observed them, analysed them and always ensured these reflected in his writings. His sharp intellect made him "live" in his writings and he "lived" till his death.

I also wish to post the condolence message of Ulaganayagan Kamal Hassan, who was a close friend of Writer Sujatha

May his soul rest in peace, and ny deep felt condolences to his family.

A Place To Rest
God looked down on your body,
So tired from hanging on,
From a life that was overwhelming you,
And wanted back His son.
So he took away the air you breathe,
And gave you what was best,
A place to be at peace,
A final place to rest.

You may also visit his homepage Writer Sujatha

Driving people insane as always

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