i found it...i did it at last....eurekha...
yayyyy
this is sooo cool
i am jumping all around.....
i know it now,....
nobody can stop me now...
yayyy
yipppeeee
yessss....
ok ok...enuf tension
wanna know wat i found out?
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-well i found out wen my blog was officially born!!
yep...it was on
MAY 8TH,2006
even though i posted my first post on april 24th 2004...tht was just a forward.....and all those time till may 8th my blog was in the construction stage...it was in the pre birth stage experimenting...and saw the real blog world only on may 8th...2006
so not a year has passed yet...so let may 8th come....and we will get the celebrations rolling!!!
Zanychild
Driving people insane as always
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Saturday, April 7, 2007
Little did I know!
When I saw you down the lane
Arrows of your sharp features
Pierced through my soft features
I was rooted to my place
As you occupied my heart’s empty space
you were nearing me
My heart was nearing to burst open
You smiled at me as you passed me
Making my heart hammer against me
I gathered myself together
And wondered if I will see you again
Little did I know
I saw u in the park bench
Buried behind newspapers
But I knew it was you
Coz my heart said so
I sat next to you
To see if you will smile again
That melts me allover again
Yes, you did smile
And made me fly a mile
‘Jogging’ u asked me
I nodded in reply
‘Can I join you?’ u asked me
I wonder what I told you
But we jogged all around the lane
Till the end of the lane
I gathered myself together
And wondered if I will see you again
Little did I know
You came everyday
We jogged everyday
In one of the jogging sessions
Came our confessions
I do not know if it was you who made it
I do not know if it was me who made it
But both of us knew it, that
I was the sister whom you lost
You were the brother whom I lost
In the tragedy 10 years back
I gathered myself together
And wondered how you recognized me
Little did I know
That a new face from a plastic surgery
Doesn’t hide my old face to you.
Zanychild
Driving people insane as always
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
The Pit of Struggles
I woke up to a bright sunny…err… wait a sec….it isn’t bright or sunny….instead it is pitch dark...oh maybe I am sleeping still….’wake up sleepy head’….I open my eyes wide open, still it is pitch dark….I try to look at my watch…it shows 6 :00 am….then wat is the matter? Why is everything pitch dark….I look next to me to find that my mother is not sleeping next to me…where could she have gone? And I see three people clad in white approaching me…..I strain my eyes and adjust them to the darkness…and see the three figures clearly…one is a woman and the other two are men…they come to me
‘Welcome to the pit of struggles’ says one of the men who is slightly taller than the others
‘We r the 3 wise people of struggles’ says the lady with them
I blink….what the heck is happening around me?
‘I am the director of this pit, she is the managing director and he is the assistant director’ says the man who is shorter…
I blink once again and ask them if this is some kind of a joke?
They then ask me to look above…over thousands and thousands of foot above me I see a small glitter….the lady tells me that, that is my goal in life…
I am confused….what goal….who are all these crazy people??
As if reading my mind…the taller man says…that is the goal I am supposed to reach in my life…and the purpose of my life…
I laugh out! What the hell….I myself do not know wat my goal is…and here are three people defining my goals??
I then say to them…I want to get out of this spooky place and want to return back home…
The lady smiles at me and says…that even they want the same thing to happen…and for that to happen she says I have to reach my goal….
Me ‘!!!?????’
What the hell is happening around me! Is this some kind of a fantasy movie?
How can I reach that goal which is thousands and thousands of feet above me I ask them?
They reply that, that is why I am here…in this pit…this pit of struggles…which has to be overcome with the torch light of hope, and they give me a small pen torch…
I give them a confused look, to which they say…this is the torch light of hope…
Err…excuse me….I say….
With this teeny weenie torchlight of hope I am supposed to reach that goal….up...Up …above me…
they nod and smile at me….
That is impossible….I cry
They smile for this too…
And say this torchlight will show you the way of light you have to follow….
But what if I do not want to reach my goal? I ask them
They reply that only those highly ambitious people fall into this pit at a certain point of their life!
I laugh that they might have been mistaken…I am not that ambitious person….
They laugh back saying…all my ambitions are deep inside me…I have developed them gradually when I grew up…without me realizing it…that they are aching deep inside me to burst out….and only if I reach this goal of mine will I be able to get back to my world satisfied …. There is no other way out of this pit…
I yell ‘What the heck?’…..only I did not use heck….I used the F word….all three people shake their heads and mutter ‘Kids these days…..’
I shout back saying I am not a kid….I am an 18 year old adult….and ask them to go to where they have come from…I do not want to climb up the pit- I shout…it is soo unfair…
They just look down at me….with I do not know….if it was a look of pity or sympathy….
I sit there for a few minutes…with these weird people….they do not seem to be going…and I finally give up…
‘Ok seems like I do not have an option’
They smile at me again….
They and their bewitching smiles…I mutter to myself!
I get on my feet….they ask me to hold on to the walls of the pit with both my hands…and feel the rock wall…and use the clefts in it to climb….
I blink….but I have to hold a torch also….how am I supposed to do that?…
They smile asking me to hold the torch in my mouth…
I just shake my head…saying why can’t they give me a rope…and what if I do not know how to climb…
They smile saying I will find a rope halfway through my journey….and they very well know that I know to climb...they have seen me climb on the pipes of my house to reach my room…when I return home late….
Oops…how long have these weird people been watching me…?
I question back…what about others who fall in this pit…who do not know to climb?
They smile… (That bewitching smile!!!)...When in the pit of struggles...worry only about thyself….they said.
I show them a face…and start climbing…cursing under my breath….and I heard them cheering for me from below…..I very much need it right now!!
And they shout at me to be aware of snakes and other dangerous things….
Yikess!
I fall down again….they hold me…and say ‘we only said beware…we did not ask you to shout and lose your grip…you can overcome everything that comes your way’
And they also tell me…if I fall back again….definitely a set of hands will be there to hold me….those are hands of my well-wishers…
I continue this journey….keeping a watch for snakes….and I fall many times….and I am caught every time by a set of hands… and it puts me back on my foot….and I notice that every time it is a different set of hands….once I felt them like the hands of my mother…I also find a rope….and after endless hours I reach the glitter I saw from deep down below….it is no longer a glitter…it is beaming at me with such ferocity that it blinded me…..it looks like a big space of light….as I went near it….it engulfed me…and I felt warm all around me…….’Ouch’ I banged my head somewhere…
I get up with a start…I have been sweating….where am I?….I look around and find that I am in my room, in my bed……I can hear my mother calling for me to get up….she says it is getting late for college…..I wonder if what I experienced was a dream….when something brushes against my arm….I look down…it is the torch light of hope!
Zanychild
Driving people insane as always!
Friday, March 30, 2007
Emptiness!!
A tiring day….
The sun has receded back to its home
It has brought darkness everywhere in a matter of a few hours
Suddenly the world is engulfed in darkness...
And small illuminated lamps lit up my street
There is the usual hustle and bustle in the streets
The occasional barking of stray dogs
the wails of children
The sound of buses and all sorts of man made transports
I try to focus again on ‘working capital’ decisions’
Nothing is going through my head…
I stare at the white wall before me…
I am filled with emptiness…
A blank feeing…
I try hard to concentrate…
It doesn’t work
I throw my books aside….
I hit the covers of my bed…
The ceiling of my room is pitch black
I stare I stare….
My breathing becomes ragged
I try to think…
What have I made out of myself?
Have I taken all the right decisions?
Am I in the right place where I am?
Have I made a mark?
Will I make a mark?
Would things be different if I had heeded everyone’s wish to take science?
Would I found satisfaction there-more than what I get in solving accounts?
Was I right in deciding that this is right and this is not right for me?
Would I be feeling empty now...even if I had taken science and gone to become an engineer?
Will I be able to prove to the world, that I had made a right decision?
Better, will I be able to prove it to myself?
All I want is to be the on the cream of excellence
Do I have the stuff for it?
Time alone will answer….
Time alone will make a mark for me…
but still why do I feel empty???
??????
The sun has receded back to its home
It has brought darkness everywhere in a matter of a few hours
Suddenly the world is engulfed in darkness...
And small illuminated lamps lit up my street
There is the usual hustle and bustle in the streets
The occasional barking of stray dogs
the wails of children
The sound of buses and all sorts of man made transports
I try to focus again on ‘working capital’ decisions’
Nothing is going through my head…
I stare at the white wall before me…
I am filled with emptiness…
A blank feeing…
I try hard to concentrate…
It doesn’t work
I throw my books aside….
I hit the covers of my bed…
The ceiling of my room is pitch black
I stare I stare….
My breathing becomes ragged
I try to think…
What have I made out of myself?
Have I taken all the right decisions?
Am I in the right place where I am?
Have I made a mark?
Will I make a mark?
Would things be different if I had heeded everyone’s wish to take science?
Would I found satisfaction there-more than what I get in solving accounts?
Was I right in deciding that this is right and this is not right for me?
Would I be feeling empty now...even if I had taken science and gone to become an engineer?
Will I be able to prove to the world, that I had made a right decision?
Better, will I be able to prove it to myself?
All I want is to be the on the cream of excellence
Do I have the stuff for it?
Time alone will answer….
Time alone will make a mark for me…
but still why do I feel empty???
??????
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Ooh Aah InDIa..nO mORe iNdiA!!!
BREAKING NEWS:
The Indian team bus met with a major accident in Jamica, that the whole team as well as their coach and physiotherapist were spot dead in the major crash between the bus and the goods carrier on 23rd march 2007...this happened right before the start of the match..the accident happened when they were coming to the stadium.
A pity sight, and a great tragedy, that now the whole India is mourning.
Wait..wait a sec!
Then who played against Srilanka in the match yesterday?
Hmm.....good question...they were the duplicate Indian team which BCCI has setup to face such tragedies. The news of the accident came only today morning. Because the BCCI were sure that the Subcontinent will break lose..and there will be riots and chaos everywhere...
But they were mistaken...how could they expect a duplicate team to perform as well as our dear old Indian team! the country has broken lose due to their dismal performance!! That I am very sure that only a fit for nothing team could have played such a disastrous game!
But the bowling of our clone team was some what acceptable. It would have been better if the same was the case with the batting side! The players were fielding quite above normal Indian standards..i mean they were better...the were just jumping and flying...a very rare fielding activity seen by the normal Indian team..but I think they thought they were doing good..and suspected people suspecting them to be duplicates, that they messed up the batting!!
How else could star batsman Sachin get out for a Golden Duck..to be treasured for sure in his last worldcup match! and Ganguly...my goodness what happened to Dada..he was in great form...he went out for 7!...Yuvaraj's dismissal was our turning point...that run out..which totally knocked our luck....all because of the miscalculation and lack of attention from Dravid as to where the ball is!..and then comes Dhoni....gone for a Golden duck by LBW....wasn't LBW a part of Dada..only he used to get out by LBWs! And then the look Dravid gave..was a thing to be pitied..he stood helpless there in the ground....the fate was destined..'return back to India!!....No more cricket for you Dravid!!....you have let us Down' must have chanted again and again in his ears...then how else will the smooth, slow wall...with a cramp in his leg and with a by runner (highly unlikely of Dravid style)hit 4s continuously in one over....and get out the very next...then comes Harbajan....he is trying all sorts of stroke and by fluke hits a 6 and a 4!...munaf patel for his share hits a 4 and you must have seen the gleam in his eyes....why wouldn't he be gleaming..a 4 to his score in batting in the world cup...which is none of his area!..
After that, everything happened quick.....we were totally knocked out for 185!!..they showed the faces of the Indian team in the pavilion..total disastrous looks they had....completely they were lost and shocked...no one was talking..they were dumbstruck, they did not know what to do? they knew the welcome they were going to receive back home. they were aware of the frustration, and how much of their hard earned property was going to be damaged...it couldn't be helped..they were helpless...what has happened has happened..they are out of the world cup virtually....they could only pray that bermuda wins bangladesh...which has a probability of 1/10000....
In the end...no one died..it was just a game...with a luck on the other side...there is always a second chance for everything in life...a mother wont desert her child just because he/she is disabled. In the same way our Indian team is luck disabled..not talent disabled...it is not right to desert them...nor is it right to show our anger on their properties and effigies. In the end of the day....they have lost a game to a good side..and decent enough..it is not a shameful defeat....let us welcome them back with consoling hands.....let our support go with them wherever they go!! but we can do one thing....we can select a proper coach...Chappell has come to India only to kick them out of the worldcup!!He has to be penalized for coaching India so badly..and for creating all such tensions within the team, starting with Dada
Disclaimer: The first para is completely fictitious and is not written with any intention to hurt anyone!
Zanychild
Driving people insane as always
The Indian team bus met with a major accident in Jamica, that the whole team as well as their coach and physiotherapist were spot dead in the major crash between the bus and the goods carrier on 23rd march 2007...this happened right before the start of the match..the accident happened when they were coming to the stadium.
A pity sight, and a great tragedy, that now the whole India is mourning.
Wait..wait a sec!
Then who played against Srilanka in the match yesterday?
Hmm.....good question...they were the duplicate Indian team which BCCI has setup to face such tragedies. The news of the accident came only today morning. Because the BCCI were sure that the Subcontinent will break lose..and there will be riots and chaos everywhere...
But they were mistaken...how could they expect a duplicate team to perform as well as our dear old Indian team! the country has broken lose due to their dismal performance!! That I am very sure that only a fit for nothing team could have played such a disastrous game!
But the bowling of our clone team was some what acceptable. It would have been better if the same was the case with the batting side! The players were fielding quite above normal Indian standards..i mean they were better...the were just jumping and flying...a very rare fielding activity seen by the normal Indian team..but I think they thought they were doing good..and suspected people suspecting them to be duplicates, that they messed up the batting!!
How else could star batsman Sachin get out for a Golden Duck..to be treasured for sure in his last worldcup match! and Ganguly...my goodness what happened to Dada..he was in great form...he went out for 7!...Yuvaraj's dismissal was our turning point...that run out..which totally knocked our luck....all because of the miscalculation and lack of attention from Dravid as to where the ball is!..and then comes Dhoni....gone for a Golden duck by LBW....wasn't LBW a part of Dada..only he used to get out by LBWs! And then the look Dravid gave..was a thing to be pitied..he stood helpless there in the ground....the fate was destined..'return back to India!!....No more cricket for you Dravid!!....you have let us Down' must have chanted again and again in his ears...then how else will the smooth, slow wall...with a cramp in his leg and with a by runner (highly unlikely of Dravid style)hit 4s continuously in one over....and get out the very next...then comes Harbajan....he is trying all sorts of stroke and by fluke hits a 6 and a 4!...munaf patel for his share hits a 4 and you must have seen the gleam in his eyes....why wouldn't he be gleaming..a 4 to his score in batting in the world cup...which is none of his area!..
After that, everything happened quick.....we were totally knocked out for 185!!..they showed the faces of the Indian team in the pavilion..total disastrous looks they had....completely they were lost and shocked...no one was talking..they were dumbstruck, they did not know what to do? they knew the welcome they were going to receive back home. they were aware of the frustration, and how much of their hard earned property was going to be damaged...it couldn't be helped..they were helpless...what has happened has happened..they are out of the world cup virtually....they could only pray that bermuda wins bangladesh...which has a probability of 1/10000....
In the end...no one died..it was just a game...with a luck on the other side...there is always a second chance for everything in life...a mother wont desert her child just because he/she is disabled. In the same way our Indian team is luck disabled..not talent disabled...it is not right to desert them...nor is it right to show our anger on their properties and effigies. In the end of the day....they have lost a game to a good side..and decent enough..it is not a shameful defeat....let us welcome them back with consoling hands.....let our support go with them wherever they go!! but we can do one thing....we can select a proper coach...Chappell has come to India only to kick them out of the worldcup!!He has to be penalized for coaching India so badly..and for creating all such tensions within the team, starting with Dada
Disclaimer: The first para is completely fictitious and is not written with any intention to hurt anyone!
Zanychild
Driving people insane as always
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Ooh aAh iNDiA!...OUCH..iT HuRts!
What did we ever do to deserve such a shameful defeat?
what happened to the men in BLUE...that they have now become a black shadow on us??
where did they go wrong?
are the allergic to the first match of the world cup?
were they overconfident?
what was the very reason that they lost badly to such a young bangladesh team?
aren't they ashamed?
do they realize the consequences of their poor play?
what is the use of having a squad which cannot face a situation?
chappel should be chappaled...why did he have to experiment with different combo of 11 before the worldcup..before focusing on a fixed 11..?
why did dravid support shewag?
the people are boiling with rage throughout the subcontinent
we had packed the men in blue with such love, pressure and confidence, that they repay us back with such gratitude...
shewag should either be kicked out of the team, or sent in the middle order...
sachin should focus more on his cricket...
dada is amazing..he is the odd one out of the team....but he cud focus on increasing his strike rate...
dhoni has to bashed up if he doesn't perform the way he is supposed to perform...
dravid must continue to be the wall....the wall broke big time yesterday...he mustn't let that happen....
we have a team which is a mix of young and experienced players..there are three players having more than 10000 odd runs...
there are efficient bowlers...who must become more focused....
it was a huge disappointment to watch the match yesterday....losing to bangladesh was totally inexcusable...
the joy on the bangladeshi team was radiant..of course it will be....they have defeated the MEN IN BLUE....it is a huge victory for them.....while it is a huge shame for us with a bigger magnitude.....they scored runs amazingly...the ball was flying....while for our team....i could not even imagine it..we were 154/4 and then 157/9.....!!!!!!!!....totally unpardonable...
the bangladeshi team has lost one of their young colleagues and were mourning for them....and played great..they showed determination..
while this was bad enough...the fate of pakistan was much much worse....they lost to furst time debutants Ireland by scoring a meager 130 odd runs....but the celebration of Ireland was enjoyable....they totally smacked the pakistanis sending them packing home!!
well...all is well and good.....let us try to be optimistic....past is past, nothing can be changed....the men in blue would have learnt their lesson the hard way....let us hope..they make an amazing come back in the next two matches..have a ravishing victory over Bermuda and Srilanka....and walk with their head held high into teh super 8...nothing is impossible for the men in blue..... still nothing can dampen our hopes on them.....let us pardon them and smoothen their ruffled feathers.....we will come back...show the world that we indians are not easy to defeat.....we are a nation with cricket as our religion...nothing can make us turn our back to the world cup!!
I pray with whole of my heart that we will come back.....
ALL THE BEST TEAM INDIA!!
NOTHING CAN STOP US FROM GETTING THE WORLDCUP BACK HOME...
(don't ever make me rite a blog that is complete inverse of this one!)
what happened to the men in BLUE...that they have now become a black shadow on us??
where did they go wrong?
are the allergic to the first match of the world cup?
were they overconfident?
what was the very reason that they lost badly to such a young bangladesh team?
aren't they ashamed?
do they realize the consequences of their poor play?
what is the use of having a squad which cannot face a situation?
chappel should be chappaled...why did he have to experiment with different combo of 11 before the worldcup..before focusing on a fixed 11..?
why did dravid support shewag?
the people are boiling with rage throughout the subcontinent
we had packed the men in blue with such love, pressure and confidence, that they repay us back with such gratitude...
shewag should either be kicked out of the team, or sent in the middle order...
sachin should focus more on his cricket...
dada is amazing..he is the odd one out of the team....but he cud focus on increasing his strike rate...
dhoni has to bashed up if he doesn't perform the way he is supposed to perform...
dravid must continue to be the wall....the wall broke big time yesterday...he mustn't let that happen....
we have a team which is a mix of young and experienced players..there are three players having more than 10000 odd runs...
there are efficient bowlers...who must become more focused....
it was a huge disappointment to watch the match yesterday....losing to bangladesh was totally inexcusable...
the joy on the bangladeshi team was radiant..of course it will be....they have defeated the MEN IN BLUE....it is a huge victory for them.....while it is a huge shame for us with a bigger magnitude.....they scored runs amazingly...the ball was flying....while for our team....i could not even imagine it..we were 154/4 and then 157/9.....!!!!!!!!....totally unpardonable...
the bangladeshi team has lost one of their young colleagues and were mourning for them....and played great..they showed determination..
while this was bad enough...the fate of pakistan was much much worse....they lost to furst time debutants Ireland by scoring a meager 130 odd runs....but the celebration of Ireland was enjoyable....they totally smacked the pakistanis sending them packing home!!
well...all is well and good.....let us try to be optimistic....past is past, nothing can be changed....the men in blue would have learnt their lesson the hard way....let us hope..they make an amazing come back in the next two matches..have a ravishing victory over Bermuda and Srilanka....and walk with their head held high into teh super 8...nothing is impossible for the men in blue..... still nothing can dampen our hopes on them.....let us pardon them and smoothen their ruffled feathers.....we will come back...show the world that we indians are not easy to defeat.....we are a nation with cricket as our religion...nothing can make us turn our back to the world cup!!
I pray with whole of my heart that we will come back.....
ALL THE BEST TEAM INDIA!!
NOTHING CAN STOP US FROM GETTING THE WORLDCUP BACK HOME...
(don't ever make me rite a blog that is complete inverse of this one!)
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